Yesterday everything went so good..so smoothly. I felt so optimistic, joyful & hopeful. They retrieved 9 eggs which is more than we could have ever hoped for. Then around 9pm last night I started experiencing bad pelvic & abdominal pains, upset stomach, extreme bloating and diarrhea (lucky me 😝). I am showing signs of Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome (OHSS) which is kinda to be expected since I was so over stimulated from all the hormones. The nurse told me to keep an eye & if things get worse to go to emerge…but we aren’t at that point just yet. So even though I spent all night awake and unwell I still felt incredibly optimistic this morning. I sat by the phone nervously waiting for the nurse to call and update us on how many embryos we got. Since we had 9 eggs maybe 6 or 7 embryos?
Nope!! She called and notified us that from our 9 eggs…only 6 were mature & only 3 fertilized normally. She could not answer or explain what happened to the other 3 that fertilized abnormally as the lab only gives them limited information . So in 24hrs we have lost over 66% of our eggs 😢. I’m freaking out. I’m trying to remain hopeful but I’m afraid things are going to repeat themselves like last time…😣😔🙏🙏 I want my miracle too 🦄! I want this for Mike, for myself, for our families….please don’t take it away from us again. 🤰
If we only have 3 embryos by Day 1 of 5….how many will actually make it to transfer day!?! Last time we only had 3 embryos on day 1 also and each day, one by one, they would arrest and stop growing.
(This is the current stage of my 3 👆)
So you can see why I don’t want to be writing this post because it isn’t the news I want to share with all of you. But I promised I would share my story for others not to feel alone & hopefully inspire more conversations around infertility, and that means writing about the good and the bad.
I am afraid we are about to relive the same painful nightmare from back in March. I can’t do that again, how will we survive this time?! And now we will be left with such a huge debt too! *deep breaths* But there is always hope and we will keep holding on to that. And I have my amazing husband so together we can weather any storm.
A friend told me today ‘good things come in three’s’ and that made me think maybe my 3 embies (how i shall now refer to my embryos) is my 3 good things.
Now to anxiously await tomorrow’s call with my update….please bless us with positive news 🍀🤞.