So, today was the big day…the day we’ve been so nervously awaiting for so long. It was embryo transfer day.
Let’s get the bad news out of the way first: our three beautiful embies did not survive as hoped 😔. Of the three, only one made it to today (Day 5 post retrieval). This means no embryos to freeze resulting in no second chances and no siblings (yes I know, never say never but reality says it’s not likely). We were both shocked & disheartened. The look on my husband’s face when the doctor told us was enough to break my heart in that instant 💔. But I couldn’t get upset as I was about to have the one embie that did survive transferred into my uterus and I had to stay as calm as possible for his or her sake. It was tough… if I’m honest, I felt that fear creep back in that fate was repeating itself. But the past is the past & I need to focus on the right now and what’s to come. 💟
Now for what we know. We know the the embie that did make it has developed normally & is where it should be as a day 5 blastocyst. Assited hatching was used to facilitate hatching which helps with implantation. To the doctor, our embie is developing as should and looks promising. This is great news which brings me hope that it will continue to thrive in utero. The last time we did our transfer the one embie we had was underdeveloped and considered “lazy” but was transferred to give it a fighting chance but unfortunately it didn’t work out. So things look more promising for this little guy or girl. It only takes 1 strong embie and a miracle right!! 🙏🦄🤞
My matris ultrasound score came back at 9.0/10 which is excellent. This means my uterine lining looks very welcoming, thick & sticky for a developing embryo to implant. It went up a whole point from last cycle when it was an 8. Very happy about this.
Tried acupuncture prior to transfer today & after to help facilitate implantation of our embie. They even used a heating lamp over my abdomen prior to transfer to “heat the oven” and embryos like a warm uterus for implantation (so I’m told). 🍳
The transfer itself went well but not without it’s hiccups. Transfer requires having a very full bladder so the Dr is able to see my uterus to guide the catheter. Now if you’ve ever had to pee really badly & had to hold it for over an hour before you know the discomfort. Now add laying on a table with someone poking around in your lady parts while the ultrasound tech pushes down on your belly …this equals not a pleasant experience 😖. Add to this my retrograde uterus that is tipped backwards and flipped on itself which as the Dr put “you & your uterus certainly make my job interesting” as he was having the darndest time trying to properly see my uterus on the ultrasound screen. But he did eventually find it (I hope) and transferred our embie successfully. Now the rest is up to it to thrive & survive and implant. 🤞😍🙏💗
(The circle shows the air bubble our embie is in within my uterus post transfer. The blue arrow is pointing towards my very enlarged ovary…they don’t lie when they say its huge!)
I’ve been feeling really bloated tonight and even a bit sickly. My bowels also are out of sorts and I’ve been having cramping and ‘pinching’ like feelings here & there. Very tired from today as it was quite a long and emotional day. Now to enter the dreaded two week+ wait to find out if was successful when I go for my beta blood test. Until then Mike & I will have to find ways to keep our minds occupied. Tomorrow may be a painting kind of day 🖌😉. I am on strict bed rest 🛌 for the next 3 days and to ‘be bored’ as the Dr put it. Then to remain relaxed and take it very easy over the next few weeks which i plan on doing!! Mike is so good he’ll take good care of ‘us’ 😁. Oh, and no more kitty litter duty for this girl, hehe. Nurses orders.
Thank you all for your messages, prayers and virtual hugs. Xxoo We have felt them all 🤗