Life is hard…It’s not what we expected.

Saw this at Hallmark and it really resonated with me ♡

Life isn’t always what we want or pictured, theres not always good fortune or white pickette fences. Rainbows don’t always lead to a pot of gold. And good people don’t always get a baby of their own on the timeline they hoped for…and for some not at all.

Unfortunately Mike & I have learned this the hard way. Four years ago we planned and started trying for a family . I was naive thinking it would be easy. We loved each other and were happy.. .why wouldnt we get blessed with a child. We will be amazing parents! I was even as bold as to think i could plan what season I wanted to have our baby (summer of course like moi).

As the months and years rolled by I learned life wasn’t going to go like I had planned. Its still isn’t. Never in a million years did I think I would be diagnosed with infertility and low ovarian reserve (low egg count) & be praying that science combined with love and a miracle will bring us a little bundle of joy. Never did I think we would do IVF and then have it fail….twice! Never would I have imagined that at 30 years old I would be told that my eggs are of poor quality & that im perimenopausal. Never did I think it would cost me around $50k just for the chance to have my/our own child. Never did I think we would be considering a third round of IVF after soo much heartache…

But here I am. Each day is a struggle. But I get up and I keep going. I want to enjoy my life again with my husband. I want us to thrive & just have fun again!! I am going to continue to fight for myself and for him. We both deserve it.

This journey is hard- its depressing, frustrating, maddening, exercises patience no one knew we had, baby envy is real people, and it’s so damn physically exhausting & emotionally taxing beyond belief. If you’re one of my #ttcsisters & #IVFwarriors you understand what I’m talking about. If not, I hope this gives a glimpse into what it’s like to be on this journey of infertility. And I hope you never have to join me on it.

Thanks for your continued support and to those that have reached out to me. Xoxo

#infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #infertility #ttctribe #ivf #ivfjourney #pregnancy #hopingtobepregnant #infertilityblog #ttc #ivffailure #ABabyfortheBaloghs #hope

Author: babyforthebaloghs

Married to my high school sweet heart- together 14 years, TTC x4 yrs, Have a kitty named Roxie, Oncology Nurse, Purple hair, outgoing & social, movie/Tv buff, girl gamer, alpaca lover.

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